God, please forgive me for all I’ve done and all my sins. I’m trying to forgive myself but every
step I take feels like walking on pins.
I know you have been with me the whole way and kept me alive. I want to feel forgiven and
walk with pride. It’s hard to feel like I deserve it from all the wicked I have done.
I want to walk in your steps, helping people laugh and have sober fun.
I don’t want the fake feeling I poured down my throat – I don’t want the things
that I’ve smoked in my lungs, barely staying afloat.
Please God, help me know my path in life, what direction to go. I want to live the right way,
share my story and continue to grow. I know it won’t be easy,
but that’s the price I’m willing to pay. I want to be honest with myself
and my loved ones, no longer being fake.
I have put my life on the line so many times, just to test my fate. I don’t want to hurt myself
one more time and say, “Check mate.” Knowing you have a purpose for me somewhere
down the road, maybe I had to feel this pain so you knew I could carry the load.
But again, God, forgive me my sins, and thank you for the love you’ve shown.
Thank you for my children, my legacy, that will grow. I will thank you each morning and night
for what you have given me, and humbly ask you to lift these burdens of my past,
helping me to be free.